Happiness is a… (Question 16)

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

Wouldn’t we be a little boring, if we all liked the same things.  I mean, everything would be the same.

And if everything was the same, we wouldn’t have the things we didn’t like to complain about.

Or the people who like them.

And if everything was the same, would we really like it?

Would we like anything?

Most people I know in person think that I am pretty odd.  I like geeky things.  I play video games.  I watch all kinds of strange movies.  I could care less what point buck someone has on their wall.  In fact, if I walk into your house and see that, I’m probably making fun of you in my head.  Don’t think wrong of me.  I had an over obsessive hunter ex.  So obsessive when we accidentally got pregnant he was mad at me because I was due in the middle of one of his many hunting seasons.  As if he didn’t hunt when it wasn’t a season anyway.

What? Oh sorry. Yeah. Happiness.

Happiness is sitting on a front porch swing, during a thunderstorm, with my boys.  Because that is what I grew up doing with my Pappy.

What do you think?

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A different drummer. (Question 15)

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

I am pretty sure that I have entirely my own strange way of thinking and processing information.

Yeah, sure, I’m sure some aspects are similar to one person’s while something else resembles someone else.  But I can’t ever seem to be able to completely show what is going on in my head.

And maybe that is where I’m different.  It seems to me that most people know what they can, should and should have said in a lot of situations.  Most of the time for me though, I feel like I don’t have a right to be thinking what I am.

I guess in a way, I’m getting a little better at this.  Though I still feel entirely lost in a lot of conversations.  Some things people say just go straight over my head, in a chat that it should have just come out naturally.

Or, maybe I’m just crazy.  Who knows.

Not me.

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Entirely Bonkers. (Question 14)

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?

Absolutely every single day of my life.  How is that for an answer?

I was once told that those who question their sanity, are in fact the sanest of all.  I have held onto this with everything I have over the years.  Because if this is true, I have to be the most sane person that will ever exist.

I also think that the most creative people will forever teeter on that ledge of insanity.

At least that is how I hope it is.  Because sometimes I feel like I’m about to crash on the less favorable of those sides.

And some days?  I’m not even sure which is the more favorable side.

Maybe there is comfort in insanity.

And how much more insane and creative can you get than this?!

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Breakin’ the law. (Question 13)

Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Yeah, that is what went through my head.  So what?!!!  I’ll honestly admit there is a lot of times Beavis and Butthead go through my head.  TP? TP for my… yeah.  Nevermind.

So this is kind of a tricky question.  I guess it really depends on what I’m saving them from.

Death?  Hell yes.  If their life is in jeopardy, you better believe I’d do whatever I could to save them, even if it requires me being not such a straight-laced citizen.  As if I was so straight-laced to begin with.

But if we are talking something minor, say they broke the law themselves and are headed to jail.  Yeah, probably not.  I’m a tough love person.  You need to learn from your mistakes, and this is one way to teach.

When it comes to my children, I’m on a whole different level.  Or not really.  I know most parents will tell you that there is nothing they wouldn’t do for their kids.  And I am the same way.  If my kids are in trouble, I’ll be there.  I’ll do what I can.  If their lives are in danger, you better believe I wont hesitate at doing whatever it takes to keep them safe.

But if my kids did something wrong?  I’m hoping I’m the kind of parent who would stand by and be there for my child, but not bail them out.  Both of my exes have this.  Their mommy’s and daddy’s bail them out of everything.  Jail.  Military troubles.  Financial troubles (this is one that can go either way, depending on the situation).  You name it.  And I don’t EVER want to do that to my children.  I want my children to be independent, yet know they can come to me for support.

Make sense?

What about you?

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Live. (Question 12)

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

A Switchfoot song comes to mind here.  Can you hear it? Dare you to…

It’s plain and simple what my advice would be.  Just live.

Don’t sit on the sidelines.  Don’t be afraid to get in there and DO.  We have long lives, but life is short.

So don’t waste it.

You don’t have to go “find” yourself, as so many people feel the need to do. You make yourself what you want to be.  You don’t just stumble upon a life and say “Hey! That is me.”  You know who you are, what you like and you make that your life.  Sure, it’s going to change.  And there is nothing wrong with that.  We all change and we all grow.  At least we should be changing and growing.  That is part of life.

And make sure you are living your life, and not what someone else feels you should be doing.  Because that is no life.  Be true to yourself, as the cliché’ goes.

Just live.  Don’t be afraid of it.

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Stand up. (Question 11)

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?

There was a point in time where I was so shy and socially awkward that I probably would have just sat there feeling horrible.   Wanting to open my mouth, but afraid of what would come of it, would have kept me frozen.

Well, I’m still shy, and socially awkward.  But I’d like to think that I am grown-up enough now to stick up for the person they are attacking.  The truth is, if they are bad-mouthing someone unjustly, I’m probably going to lose that respect and admiration I held for them.  Then I am not going to really care what they think of me for defending a friend.

It seems to me that all people seem to do anymore is bad-mouth and trash talk other people.  Yeah, I have my moments, but I usually leave my bitchiness to only a very small group of people I vent to.  And I don’t stand out in public where other people can overhear what I say.  And usually, I have a reason for what I’m saying, and not just a need to belittle someone else.

I’d be a hypocrite if I said otherwise.  So all I can do is suck it, do what I feel is right and move on.

What would you do?

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That thing you do. (Question 10)

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

 

I’m not really certain that I am doing either one of those.  I’m sure either one or both come into play with my life, but more than anything I’m more concerned about doing what is right for me.  And for my boys.

I’m sort of of (?) the belief that when you are doing what is right for you, it follows on that path of doing what is right in general.  And if you are doing what is right, wouldn’t you being doing things right? Am I right? What?

The thing is, everyone has their own opinion on what is right and wrong.  Why do you think they had insane asylums? Even the nut jobs thought they were doing things right.  So the best bet is to stick to doing what is right for you, again.

 

Sometimes, just maybe what is right for you, might be handing over that $5 bill you found to the homeless man in town.  Or cooking up that big meal to carry over to the widow across the street.

And maybe sometimes, just sometimes, that $5 bill you found would best be used in your gas tank, so you can make it to the school to pick up your child.  Or maybe your hug would be better for the widow, since you are on a low-budget and have your own family to feed.

It’s all a matter of view.

What is right for you?

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