The elements of an ideal year…
I think if I were to sit, and write down everything that I’d love to happen in a year, we might be here a lifetime.
So I guess what I really want, would only be one thing, that all other things would sort of revolve around.
And that one thing?
Balance. In everything. I want my life to be stable. Every time I think that I am reaching a good sturdy foundation for me and my boys, something crumbles and we have to start all over again. I’d just like to be able to not fear what is going to happen the next day, and instead look forward to it.
I believe that when life is in balance, the good with the bad, that we can build that stability we need to keep moving forward. (Did anyone else hear that in the robots voice from Meet the Robinsons? No? Oh, just me then.)
Yes, there are things I want to happen this year, that would make it ideal. I want my Yoga business to take off. I want classes every day, filled with people of all sizes, genders and ages. I want both of my exes to move on with their lives and leave me and my children in peace. I want to advance in rank in Goju. I want to tell someone that I love them, and I want to hear it meant in return. And those are things that I will be working hard on. Everyday. Every minute. With every ounce of me.
Some things I have control over. If my will is strong enough, I’ll get there. And I’m learning to do that. I’m not afraid as much as I once was. Afraid of falling. Afraid of getting hurt. Afraid of living, I guess in a way. And though some of those fears are still deep inside, I’ve started to dig them out. Expose them to light, and to life.
So I guess if I’m being honest, if this were to end up the ideal year, all I really would need is to find some peace of mind. Inner peace. With myself. With love. With others. With life. I’m working hard at learning to just let go, and live. I’ve got a lot of lessons a head of me. But I’m getting there. And any steps I take towards that peace this year will make it ideal.
What about your year?
*The 50-50 Challenge is an idea that Lori and I came up with. Go read her awesomely brilliant blog, and her challenge along with mine. We got the idea after reading another random blog post from Demanding Joy on 50 Lists to Write to Lift Your Spirits. And well, we were inspired.
Beautiful post. I love your message in here.
Thank you Krys!! 🙂
Absolutely beautiful post.
I aim for so much of the same – to balance work, family & alone time. To keep creativity flowing while ensuring that my head isn’t fully in the clouds.
It is so hard to keep my head out of the clouds. But with Goju and Yoga, it’s actually staying down a good bit. 🙂 Thanks!